Thanskgiving Weekend

Well it's the weekend after Thanksgiving, and things are beginning to settle down a little. Thanksgiving dinner with the Jackson's was great. I have always loved being a part of this family. I am grateful that I have them in my life. I haven't really talked to my family and I am missing them immensely. I wish that I was a part of their lives and was able to be involved. But they live over seas and more than six hours away. With Mark and I not working we don't do a whole lot that involves traveling. So I am grateful that the Jackson's all live here in town.
Ever since I married Mark almost eleven years ago, my relationship with my family has faltered even more than it did when I lived at home. I wish that it could be different but I also know the road goes both ways and that I cannot be the only one to blame for the relationship I share with my mother and my siblings.
My stress level has increased with not having a job and being home all the time. I truly love my girls and my husband with all my heart and soul but I have never really coped well with being needed so much. I am a selfish person and I really need ME time. Mark has slowly come to that conclusion and has allowed me a little more space and knows when it's time for mom to have some time alone.
Christmas is going to be real stretch this year. The girls are hopefully getting their 4-H horse for Christmas and then a few small things under the tree. The horse is up in the air because the people we are getting her from re-nigged on their contract with the guy they sold them to. We bought them and now they are trying to take them back.
Once again I want to let my family know how much I love and miss them and how much I wish we were all a little closer in our relationships.
Daddy and Katrina I love you both and I am truly thankful for all you have ever done for us.
Mom I miss you and hope you are well and things are still what you hoped they would be.
My siblings who choose to read this I love you all so much and miss you guys a ton. I hope one day we will all be able to get together and laugh once again.

Loves to you all!!